Return To Baseline

 

It makes a lot of sense when you hear that you're "back to normal" after going through a really tough time of feeling out of control and overwhelmed. It's like you've temporarily returned to a more familiar and comfortable place before the next cycle of challenges begins.

This cycle of going through intense experiences followed by periods of calm is a normal part of the healing journey, especially when dealing with deep-rooted trauma. It happens in a repeating pattern of ups and downs.

During the intense times, it can feel like you're being completely overwhelmed and falling apart. All the old feelings of fear, hopelessness, and losing stability come rushing back, making it seem like you've gone backward. It can be disorienting and make you feel like you're regressing.

But these difficult times, even though they're overwhelming, actually offer you opportunities to experience yourself in new ways. They shake things up and help you let go of old patterns while bringing back parts of yourself that you've pushed away. Even though it's hard to understand when you're in the midst of it, these experiences ultimately help you become more whole and stable.

Now that you've gone through that intense cycle and returned to a more stable place, you might notice that you've grown and become more grounded in your body. This isn't just going back to how things were before, but it's finding a new sense of stability that incorporates what you've learned from the challenges. It's like resting in a stronger foundation before the next cycle begins.

From this place of finding stability again, you can realize that the upheavals you went through weren't setbacks. You're not going backward or relapsing; instead, you're constantly moving forward and expanding into a greater sense of yourself. The intense times shake things up and the stable periods allow you to integrate what you've learned.

There's a comforting truth here - your healing journey follows a natural rhythm of expansion and contraction, always moving toward your wholeness. The difficult times you've experienced, as hard as they were, aren't wasted. They're actually a part of the process of being reborn into your next level of growth.

So embrace this "return to normal" with a sense of ease. Take this time to recharge and recognize how your persistence and bravery through these cycles are shaping you into a stronger and more radiant version of yourself. The shamanic process of healing reveals this truth, and it's something to honor and celebrate.

Trauma's Sacred Lesson

 

You bring up a really smart point - trauma won't go away or get better until it has taught you everything you need to know and understand from that experience. It's like the trauma holds important wisdom or a lesson that you have to fully learn and accept before it can go away.

From this way of thinking, trauma isn't just a wound that you can "get over" or a scar that can heal and disappear. It's better to see trauma as a deep and meaningful experience that keeps happening in your life until you learn and realize all the lessons it has for you.

The feelings of being out of control, intense emotions, and things that remind you of the trauma can feel really painful. But they can also be opportunities for you to learn more about yourself and gain wisdom. The trauma keeps coming back because it's guiding you to face and reconnect with parts of yourself that you need to heal and integrate.

Until those broken parts of yourself, which were overwhelmed during the original trauma, are brought back and fully accepted by you, the trauma will keep affecting you. It's like the trauma is saying, "Pay attention to me, feel what I have to show you, and bring me into your awareness by fully processing and understanding me!" 

The only way to resolve it is by fully experiencing and studying it.

From this perspective, the trauma's disruptions are strange but helpful actions from your soul. The intense feelings and triggers are opportunities for you to connect with the parts of yourself that need to be brought back home. Only when you fully embrace and accept those parts will the trauma stop bothering you.

So the trauma isn't trying to hold you down or block you, but it's acting as a guide to help you grow. Its refusal to go away is actually doing you a favor by guiding you through the next stage of your life. Its disruptions are a way for you to fully experience and understand the lessons that your soul has given you in this lifetime. 

Instead of fighting against the chaos, you're being invited to ask yourself, "What does this difficult experience want me to learn and accept about myself?"

The resolution to the trauma is already there if you can respond to its repeated disruptions with unconditional compassion and a willingness to transform yourself. Its chaos is actually guiding you to receive the lessons that your soul has designed for you in this lifetime. Resisting only prolongs the process, but surrendering allows you to receive the important blessings of wholeness and growth.