I can only begin to imagine the immense suffering you endured for decades, feeling trapped in a torturous isolation from yourself and disconnected from others before embarking on your journey of trauma recovery.
To constantly be haunted by cruel and condemning thoughts that eroded any sense of self-worth, while simultaneously fearing intimacy with others for the worry of being exposed as fraudulent or unlovable, is an incredibly heavy burden that no one should have to bear alone. It's layer upon layer of suffering.
The exhaustion of constantly monitoring your thoughts, feelings, and expressions for any flaws that could justify harsh self-judgment, while suppressing your authentic voice that longed for connection and trust, must have been overwhelming. The constant vigilance against potential attacks whenever you let your guard down. The struggle of being your own worst enemy, yet desperately yearning for inner peace.
Trauma and attachment wounds create a constant battle between protecting yourself from more pain and wanting to fully engage in life. To be held captive in that struggle without compassion or tools for decades is truly heart-wrenching. It speaks to the incredible resilience that resides even in the most broken spaces. I honor the silent strength that carried you through until the reunion with yourself could finally take place.
No comments:
Post a Comment